FLAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRGGGGG!!!!! And other such mumblings.

Mumble is such a strange word, sounds like bumble. As in bumble bee, them poor sods, they can only have sex once in their life (if their male) then they die, then again, i suppose it means they neer get dissapointed. Dissapointement is said to be part of life, but not a bumble bees, the meaning of life for a bumble bee is to BUZZZZZZZZZ. They must be on a lot opf drugs to generate a buzz that big, wonder what drugs are like... hmmm..... dooooom... mount doom, in mordor where Joe shall be pushed into its fiery pits simply because I feel like it. It should stop him pointing at that computer screen and laughing uncontrollably. I have a reason not to have control, Im female, were more intune with both sides of our brain and thus have more connections with the emotional side of things. Ergo, I can throw a hissy fit and blame it on the left hemisphere! But best not tell mum that or shell think she can get away with it too, and thats MY excuse! :O

Bye bye for now!!!

Reveiw: Durex Extra Safe Condoms

Durex boasts a wide range of condoms, from extra safe to extra pleasure. But what is a 17 year old girl to do when the so called 'Extra Safe' ones break? Through no fault of my own, or my partners, not one, but 3 of these condoms broke. Luckily the first two were not such a problem as we realized in time, but the last one could have gotten me pregnant yesterday and probably would have done if my boyfriend had not kept a level head during my hysteria and marched me around Medway in order to find a doctors that was open on a Saturday. Thankfully, we found one and got a prescription for the pill. Though the woman tried to force a IUD on me.... No thank you.

First thing monday morning I'm going to talk to my GP and sort out an implant (not an IUD, which looks like a torture device).

Oh crap moment.s

This week didn't really start out too good.

First my boyfriend co-erced into having sex in the woody bit across from college. Which I really don't know hwy I let him cos it was really uncomfortable and juts not that good. But then we find out that people in the smoking area could see us cos (even though we checked) there were thin patches in the hedges on the other side O.O So embarrassing. So now I feel like a freak and slightly used cos he really doesn't seem bothered by it.

Then later I had to have the mandatory counseling session that Kelly made me do. I swear the womans eyes popped out of their sockets when I started talking about my ever so dysfunctional family. Who I wll get back to in a moment.

Then, I told Joe I was never having sex with him again (empty threat) so he turns to Meg and smiles at her. Bearing in mind that the two had a fuck buddy situation going before he got with me. The entire situation itself already really gets to me but when he does stupid stuff like that it really pisses me off. Its like I dont even matter. So I walked away in a huff. Then in psychology we were doing freuds theory and I swear i must have been twitching. Everything we do is driven by our unconcious wants. It made me feel so crappy, cos its like he doesnt really care about me cos he knows that he can just go back to Meg without any problems.

Anyway, away from the crappy boyfriend, I found out that my Mum (who was 7 months pregnant) had lost the baby and because of how far gone she was she is going to have to give birth to it. All the pleasure and none of the gain. She deserves do much better! I wish she had never gone crazy. So cos of that Dannae has to stay with us for a few days.

Then I come in today, all depressed and confused cos I'm not sure how I feel about the loss of Kiera Louise (yes she had a name.) And Joe doesn't care. The only thing he cares about is the fact that Kelly is making him have more counseling sessions. He really is such a selfish prick sometimes.

Then he tried to make me go to Dockside with him when I didnt want to cos he needs a present for his dads bday (even though eh went yesterday and could have got him something then.) and he starts going on about how he never asks anything of me, which is bullshit if you look at the day before. He's so selfish.

So yeah, in a real bad place right now and cant even fucking commit suicide cos i cant swallow pills and everything else is too messy lol

Static to the Sound

"Please, don't get me rescued!" - Jacks Mannequin (Rescued)

As many of you (or few of you depending on how you look at the lack of followers for this blog.) I recently opened up a role-play forum, and it has sky-rocketed. Well maybe not, but Static To The Sound has gained quite a few members, theyr really liking it. This makes me happy as always.

http://statictothesound.proboards.com/index.cgi

I, however, will not go down the same dark admin path as my friend Marcus*, who had to delete his Harry Potter Roleplay site because of a scandal. He got obsessed and lost himself in that world, which I can understand but at the same time he neglected his girlfriend and ended up being a little too into an in character romance. So not gonna do that because, lets be honest, I love my boyfriend. Plus he's on the site and would know lol.

I got over some video block and managed to actually finish something, it feels great to have accomplished something.
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Though the whole vidding thing brings me onto a different subject, it may be that my group of friends are growing up or just dont have time but the YouTube community that I have relied on for so long seems to be dieing slowly. If I could physically cling to it, I would. Real people always manage to let me down and forget me, but for some reason my friends online never have. But now, with some going off to college, some doing GCSEs and some going through real family problems, everything seems to have grinded to a halt. Its kind of depressing... Plus the whole copyright thing is putting a lot of people off. We need a new video hosting site.... Hmm.... Imeem is gone... This means I need to research something. Has to have decent quality, a community sorta thing, no copyright......Expect results soonish.

- Vykie x


P.s. I just lost the game.

A new dawn, a new day.

"It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me" - Some dude who was awesome

Welcome to 2010 everyone!!! All the depressing rants from last year are gone, and I am looking at the new year with an optimistic veiw point. I have great friends, a brilliant boyfriend (though he thinks Zelda is better than Final Fantasy) and am generally happy.

I wonder how long that will last?

Lets face it, there's never no drama and depression in my life, so watch out cos there will no doubt be rants that make no sense. I do tend to lose all coherancy when I'm upset.